Changes in my heart have left me in a bind
No longer are they hidden, the thoughts within my mind
And freedom brings me peace, for I now know who I am
But find that in the end, this new peace is a sham

Sorrow for what’s lost and regret for things long gone
Stir within me fear of what these changes now may spawn
To be compared with what no longer is, and end up falling short
Having lost the very friendship which I now need for support

I give promise to myself that I will try to be a better man
Yet stumble, moving backwards, worse off than when began
For when honest with myself, the lie to others grows
And what, I ask myself, is worth that cost, do you suppose?

And peace may be the answer, but what a mighty cost
That I might be myself for once, and look back on what I lost
To see all that once was, I had built upon the sand
Giving faces to the lie in hopes that none would understand

Uncertainty and doubt, too, play a role in all that bind
Like fraying rope I weaken and threaten to unwind
What the future holds for me, and who might I become
Questions I must face today for tomorrow I’ll be numb

So peace though I have found, happiness I do not own
Forsaking all I once held dear I find myself alone
While the past looks on in judgment of what these changes wrought
I look on in horror while my dreams add up to naught